Sometimes I...

sit here and my mind just wanders and races around thinking about a million different things. Thinking about different people, places or things. I sometimes think that I think too much. Actually I'm pretty sure that I do. I wish I was one of those people that could just turn it off. Not think of others or things that go along with that. I think about memories, good and bad. Sometimes the bad ones bring up old feelings that I may have had locked away. Maybe I should have thrown away those keys. That way I wouldn't be able to unlock those doors and release what was hiding within. Sometimes the good ones make me smile. They make me grin and giggle and remember that there are still some good people in this world... sl and rl. Not many but there are a few. I guess there is no off button for me. I'm always going to think. I'm always going to over analyze. I'm always going to observe and watch and notice things that the average person probably won't. I'm always going to think. I'm always just going to be me.

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Chrissy

Why do...

a majority of girls have to be total bitches? I mean really? Do they feel so threatened and are they so insecure that they have to resort to name calling and severe jealousy? If you have to wonder if i'm talking about you in this entry... chances are I am.


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Chrissy

When should you...

stop thinking about others and start thinking about yourself? Sometimes I find myself always thinking of others and how they feel and how they would react in different situations and outcomes. I think about if it may hurt their feelings if I say this or do that. I don't really take the time to think about me or how things will effect me, only them. I wonder if they are thinking about how something will effect me. Do they care if it will hurt my feelings? Do they care if the outcome is terrible for me and oh so pleasant for them? I think I should start taking the time to think about Chrissy. Do what Chrissy wants and what's best for her because chances are the other person could care less. There are a small few that actually care. Maybe I'll be lucky to run into them sometime.

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Chrissy

OMG...

It's been a few months since I've written anything here. I figured I'd jump back on the saddle and stop slacking. Blogging is a great way to get feelings and thoughts off of your chest and boy do I have a lot of those lol. I've lost a few friends over the past few months in sl over some complete nonsense. I think that's what this post is gonna be about. Awhile back I thought I had lost a really good friend over something completely stupid but we resolved things like we always do and things are back to Norman. Yes I said Norman lol. My little niece says that instead of "normal". I did however loose someone I thought was a friend from that whole situation. It was a guy.. go figure lol. Friends come and go but you have to wonder are they really friends to begin with? Take a look at your friend's list and who on it is really a friend and would go to bat for you or would drop everything and come to your aid? Who would listen to you and give you feedback and not just ignore what you're saying while they smile and nod? I have very few people that I can really call a friend. I have very few that will drop everything and come to my rescue. I even have one that got out of bed and came and returned a house that I put out for someone I was involved with that was laying there butt naked with someone else. Crazy huh? I'll have to tell you guys that story some other time. They know I'd do the same for them. I'm really an awesome friend and those of you who have not taken the chance to get to know me or just wanna get in my pants.. maybe you should take that time.

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Chrissy

So i'm standing here and...

apparently I don't have on the same thing on my screen as others see me and no one tells me. I saw myself with a sweater and pants and others saw my bare naked ass with a skirt prim o.O. Why is it that no one tells you these things? They look at you and compliment and smile and laugh but forget to mention... hey btw... your ass is hanging out and I see your va jj. WTF is up with that? Kind of hurts my feelings. I know it shouldn't but i'd always tell someone even if I don't know them. Maybe i'm too nice.

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Chrissy

I guess...

I'm just a hard pill to swallow.

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Chrissy

Mac and Cheese...

never tasted so sweet. :P

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Chrissy

/me

sighs...
good sigh :)


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Chrissy

/me has...

re-evaluated things and has turned a new leaf.

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Chrissy

You really are...

the only shadow standing in your own sunshine.

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Chrissy

The saddest love...

is to love someone,
to know that they still want you,
but the circumstances don't let you have them.

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Chrissy

Untitled...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7dy66m6xnE

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Chrissy

A friend once told me...

"Sometimes you have to kiss a lot of frogs to get a prince." Well, what if i'm tired of kissing frogs? or what if I run out of frogs to kiss? or what if the frog doesn't want to kiss me?

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Chrissy

So...

I had a long talk with someone and it occurred to me that I may need to reevaluate some things that I've been thinking about. I think I need to stop, take a step back, and consider other possible routes. There's this line in one of Lil Wayne's raps that goes...
"Life is such a fucking roller-coaster then it drops
But what should I scream for, this is my theme park..."

He's right. It's my life and I make my own decisions and decide what paths to take and can manipulate the outcome. If you allow things to happen then they will, if not.. then they won't.

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Chrissy

Maybe...

we'll meet again in a third life.
Maybe not...

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Chrissy

I think...

Alice is starting to fall back down into that rabbit hole she was in once before. Someone please please please pull her out.

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Chrissy

I think that I...

have the world's worst timing o.O

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Chrissy

Untitled...

Use me once, shame on you.
Use me twice, shame on me.
I can guarantee there will not be a third.

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Chrissy

You never know...

what you had until it's gone...
/me says as she walks away.

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Chrissy

What i'm thinking right now...

I really don't understand how I can be so nice to someone and not get the same in return. I don't understand how I can totally be there for someone and them not be there for me or when their issue is resolved I am dropped to the sidelines again. I'm often ignored and just plain pushed away. All I want is to be someone's number one priority. I try to make everyone that is important in my life feel special and I try to make them feel like they are my number one. I have a saying in my profile that says :

"Never make someone else your priority while allowing yourself to be their option..."     

This is so true. If you find yourself as someone's option then chances are you'll never be their priority.

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Chrissy

Euphoria...

–noun 

a feeling of happiness, confidence, or well-being sometimes exaggerated in pathological states as mania.

 

Rhymes with....?

 

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Chrissy

 

 

Good things...

come to those who wait?

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Chrissy

You know...

it sucks having the flu on new years :(

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Chrissy

oh wait.. maybe shouldn't muahzzzz bc i'm sick :(